i don't wanna sound ridiculous but i think you know i'm sick of this

My Oldest Friend : Andrew Belle

Sometimes it feels as though no matter what you do in your life, you can't change whatever fate there is that is set out for you. Unfortunately, it appears to me that this said 'fate' is not a reflection of my own personal preferences.

And I do mean this in every imaginable way. Often times, it just seems as though no matter how hard you work, how great you treat the people in your life, how honest you are with yourself, how many risks you take, how many times you brush yourself off after falling to start again, how many different types of adversity you face and overcome, or how many times you feel as though giving up is all that is left and you still push forward, that life will never play out the way you want it to.

Maybe it's just about time to accept that no one can change their own fate in any possible way, that the path you take was truly the only one you could follow. Maybe from the day each of us are born, life is already decided and no matter what we do, we cannot alter it.

But maybe, that all sounds completely ridiculous too.

All I know, is for tonight I'm done putting in all the effort to be better then yesterday, to be stronger than before. For tonight, I'm finished trying. Like Dr. Bailey so expertly put it in the Grey's episode this week, "She can be positive tomorrow".